THE BROKEN MIRROR

This is a hard post for me to write, "For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known. " (1 Corinthians 13:12).
 
That said, this past weekend I had a recurring nightmare triggered by watching the Canadian Armed Forces (CAF) sexual misconduct committee hearing last Friday.
 
Here is a bit of the dream:  
I am terrified, struggling to leave my government job again.  What's different this time is realizing I can leave the building.  I don't have to find a way to escape.  I can just walk out.

Why am I sharing about this dream?  Maybe to offer hope to others (and myself) that entrenched nightmares can really change and end one day.  
 
Continuing, some years ago at Queen's Park I experienced something similar to what is now being exposed in the Canadian Armed Forces.  Now again, a present day sexual harassment story is triggering me deeply.  I wonder how many others it's triggering too (women and men, fathers, mothers, sons, daughters, friends, husbands, wives)???
 
Next. Ever since the "#MeToo" movement started I have wanted to say me too. In that vein, a few weeks ago when I saw Maj Kellie Brennan being interviewed by Mercedes Stevenson. I could see that Kellie was broken-- Or maybe I saw my own brokenness?
 
Finally, I'm thinking of a movie where a woman soldier goes back for someone trapped behind enemy lines.  Do those of us who make it out of trauma (if we make it out) have a duty and responsibility to go back for others?  "Courage Under Fire," that was the name of the movie.
 
Cb 

"As we celebrate His rising this Easter season, may you encounter anew His healing touch and His thirst to bring about the glory of the Resurrection in your life.  May Our Lady be your guide and lead you in hope!"  
 
(Mother Agnes Mary, SV, Sisters of Life IMPRINT/ Spring 2021).
 
 

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